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Ella Masar: LOVE – Entry #25

By Ella Massar

Psalm 37:4 

“Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”

This was the first verse I was ever given from the Bible. I was 16 years old and it was given to me by my ex boyfriend of 10 years. Yes, you read correctly, 10 years. From 16 to 26 I dated my high school sweet heart, on and off.

Without going into too much detail, he was the reason I became baptized in the first place. Let me explain.

When I first met him, I was a troubled teen, meaning, I was 15 years old and thought I was the best thing since sliced bread. How else was a small town and two-team varsity athlete, as a sophomore, supposed to feel?

However, the truth was I was a scared and troubled kid. My parents had gone through a divorce a year before and my mother was going in and out of a mental institution. She had (finally) been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder and was fighting for her life.

As a 28, almost 29 year old, I can now understand the strength and courage my mother had, still has today, to fight the disease and live the incredible life that she has. Yet, as a 15 year old, that was a different story.

I felt ashamed, I felt alone, I felt “poor me,” and it showed. My grades were slipping, I was partying with the older crowd and my poor choices were starting to take a toll.

But then my ex showed up. He had just transferred from a small Christian school and knew nothing about my troubled past or the state I was in at the time. He saw me for me; a strong, talented, stubborn (for you Mom) athletic young kid.

I am sure he had heard the “rumors” about me, but that’s the thing, he didn’t care. He had made the choice to get to know and see me for me and make his own decision.

For the first time in my life I felt free. I didn’t worry about hiding my home life or my mother’s battle. I let down my walls, and to his credit, he loved me more because of it.

That was all I needed to believe or start to consider becoming a Christian. I was so intrigued with the religion that is based and founded on love. How his family just loved me for me. How they took me in and never once judged how I had grown up; my family’s history, my financial status, everything society ordains as important. They threw it all to the wind. There were no conditions and even through the mistakes, their love never wavered.

Trust me folks, 10 years, is plenty of time to make a massive pile of those. We had numerous difficult conversations, we disagreed, we laughed, we cried together, trust was broken and gained, and yet they always accepted me back with open arms.

Even now, after all the time that has passed, I know that they will always love me and would be there for me in a heartbeat. They were and always will be my foundation of Christianity. What they taught me will never be forgotten.

However, today, I am also writing this for a reason. You see I am sitting here on a plane on my way back to Houston. I have just left Vancouver, where I attended my partners’ sisters’ wedding, and as I posted a photo of just that, I found a comment that reads as follows:

“Cool photo but sad story being told through it.”

Talk about killing the mood. The only good news about ALL of this is that, once again, social media has ignited a fire in me to speak my mind.

Enough is enough. So, for the young pastor who wrote that underneath my photo, to all my family and friends, and to my better half, this is my rebuttal. MY heart, MY religion = LOVE.

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To Whom it May Concern,

Whether you believe in Jesus, Buddha, Allah, everything, or nothing, we have all heard the words below in one-way or another:

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered; it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love NEVER fails.” (1 Corinthians 13:4-8)

Now read that again.

Read it as many times as you want. Soak those words in, because that is my foundation. Those are the words of my religion and the essence of my beliefs.

You see, it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to understand that I am deeply in love with Erin Katrina McLeod. Yes, I know, she is a woman. Yes, I hear you, it is wrong. Yes, I know, I am sinning. Yet, please tell me who can throw the first stone?

Jesus, God’s only son, the one who died for our sins, the one who bore and continues to bear the weight of them, asked, “Let anyone among you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her,” of the woman at the well. No one was able to throw that stone and I ask you, who are you to do so? (John 8:7)

Even after everyone cleared the area and He asked the woman who could condemn her, she replied with, “No one sir.” “Then neither do I Condemn you,” Jesus declared, “Go now and leave your life of sin” when Jesus spoke again to the people, He said “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life”(John 8:11-12)

So, I ask you or anyone else, who are you to tell me what is right and wrong? And yes, I hear myself: Who am I to do the same?!

Trust me when I say, living in the “light” is one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. It was the moment where I let go of my pain, of all of my anger. When I started to understand the power of true forgiveness. When I accepted all my mistakes, and finally took a hard look at the selfish human being that I had become.

Every day I have to continually remind myself of who I am and who I want to be – who Jesus has called me to be and by loving Erin, who only reinforces that, you think she hinders it.

That is where you and I are different.

You see, I have accepted my life, my actions, and my voice. I know that just because the religion I choose to live by is love, that does not mean you or anyone else has to follow. That’s where I understand that everyone is different. That God has made and numbered the hairs on our heads for a reason. This is where I have found my peace. Where your words brought tears to my partner’s eyes, for you to prove and share your point, my own reassured her of everything that she is to me.

That has always been my deal with Erin – that was my word to her. That love will always win. That everything she stands for, everything that she was and is, how she pushes me to be more loving, more honest, more giving, and to be a better version of myself daily is something I am so incredibly proud to be a part of and would never hide.

She teaches me to be more patient, to be kind, to not envy, to not boast (still working on that one since she makes it difficult – in a good way) to swallow my pride, to not gossip and be forgiving no matter what. When I am in her arms, when I hear her voice, my heart feels protected, trusted and she has allowed me to find my faith again after losing my father.

Erin, as an agnostic, has shown me the strength of always choosing hope and to believe, no matter what, how judgment gets us nowhere and everyone has some good in them. She has shown me that even when we feel defeated and broken, tomorrow is always a new day and that to make someone else smile is one of the greatest gifts that we have as a human being. Lastly, she has shown me that true selfless love never fails.

The last time I checked, you can’t get more Jesus like than that. Wasn’t He the one that came back to heal the broken-hearted, to inspire the poor, to give hope to the sick, to feed the hungry? Wasn’t He who taught and preached that everything and anything done with love cannot be destroyed?

My point is, just because I am in love with Erin, does not make me any more a sinner than anyone else. At the end of my days, when I am standing in front of my Creator on judgment day, I pray that I will say the same thing I am saying today:

“Forgive me father for I have sinned. For the mistakes I have made, for the people I have hurt, I am truly sorry. I know I did not always do it right, but I accept any punishment for my actions. I thank you for your guidance, for your love, and for your support throughout the years. For being my rock and my strength when I felt the chains were too heavy to lift alone. Please allow my family and friends to know that I am okay and will always be with them, that I am so proud and honored to call them that. And lastly, please tell my best friend, the love of my life, thank you. Thank you for loving me, for honoring me, and loving me faithfully through to the end.”

After that, no one, not ONE person can tell me exactly what He will reply with. Some may argue that He will say, “You are condemned to Hell.” Or others might say He will smile, look at me with his fatherly eyes, and say, “Well done my good and faithful servant.”

Regardless of those words that follow, which will only be between God and myself, what I am trying to convey is, we ALL sin. No one is perfect and ALL of us possess the greatest gift in world. LOVE!

Whether you believe it is a sin or not, I will never apologize for loving someone, faithfully, with everything that I am, and honoring them daily. Loving someone will never be that to me and as one of my best friends, who is a believer says, “No matter WHO that someone is, we ARE to love everyone. That is the GLORY of our faith and of our Creator.”

With Love,

Ella C. Masar

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Mar 17, 2015

Unfortunately there will always be people that will use religion to judge others, take advantage of others, or use it as an excuse to hate or even kill.

Sometimes it’s hard to remember it is more a reflection of the individual than doctrine itself.

I applaud your courage to come out as a religious gay woman. It can’t be easy trying to reconcile what others say you should do and say in the name of religion to what you feel in your heart. I must say you seem to be doing it with a lot of grace and patience.

Even though I am not religious, you seem to be honoring the principals of Christ a lot better than most of your counterparts.

Best wishes to you and your partner! You two are a lovely example to young gay women!

Mar 17, 2015


hello! my name is Berea. I am a 19 year old college student. I’m studying at a school in Indiana, and I used to play soccer here.
however, this is not why I am leaving a comment. I have no idea if you’re going to see this, but this message spoke to me. I like yourself am gay and a christian. my parents are missionaries and I went to a christian school. I have come out to them and thourghly struggled with it. I just wanted to let you know that your message has given me hope. it made me smile. it made me proud that there are people like you out there. so, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

Mar 17, 2015

The real sin is how cute you two are together! Congrats, you seem genuinely happy and I don’t think we can ask for much more in life.

Mar 17, 2015

I’m proud of you, Ella. Visibility will change the world and you’re both a part of that movement.

Mar 17, 2015

It is people like you who exemplify Christianity in its purest. Christianity is about love and compassion. You and Erin show that better than most anyone.
God sent Jesus to show His love for humanity, sinners included. We are all sinners. I have a hard time believing though, that God could consider love in any form to be a sin. The basis of Jesus’ preaching was love for God and most importantly love for one another. The Old Testament set forth the strict outdated rules to form a Covenant with God. The purpose of sending Jesus was to create new Covenant between God and man. The new Covenant, or Testament, is based off of love, compassion, and overall being a good and kind person and not about the rituals and rules set by the Old Testament. The guidelines in the Old Testament are still important for the most part but Jesus came to show us that strict observance of those are not nearly as important as showing love and compassion to our fellow human beings.
Jesus loved everyone, even those he wasn’t “supposed to” love like tax collectors and prostitutes. You are not “supposed to” love Erin but Jesus showed that there is no “supposed to” in love. Love is love and love is good. No matter what.
Anyone who tries to use Christianity as an excuse to condemn you does not understand the true message of Jesus.
I wish the best of luck to you, Ella, and to you Erin in all of your endeavors. Love is never a sin.

    Mar 17, 2015

    This exactly what I’ve always believed thanks for putting it into good words

Mar 17, 2015

Wow, that was perfect. It is refreshing to hear your story because you tell it with complete vulnerability. It definitely made made me cry while reading at work. I grew up in church and met my future wife when we played basketball together in Catholic high school. You capture perfectly what it feels like to struggle between the teachings of the church and the unconditional love and happiness you feel for your partner. You and Erin are seriously beautiful together but more importantly you both are true role models on and off the pitch. Good luck this season in Houston!

Mar 17, 2015

I was born into a Christian family and I consider myself a devout Christian but all I can say is LOVE is LOVE. Who we love doesn’t define us it’s how we treat each other that defines who we truly are. I respect you for your honesty and bravery and thank you for your words of wisdom for the stand you’ve taken has sure helped many a more people.

Let love always prevail.

Mar 17, 2015

Very well written letter, Ella. Thanks for sharing these awesome words, they have inspired me. Best of luck this season and DASH ON!

Mar 17, 2015

Ella, you’re right in saying that as sinners we have no right to pass judgement or condemn you for your sins. But where I question your reasoning is where you allow yourself to continue to commit the same sin if you call it a sin. In the same passage, and you even quoted it in your post, Jesus tells the woman to leave her sin. She is not punished for her wrong doing, but instead gets off free and is told to leave the lifestyle she was living.
You also write that you are willing to accept the punishment for your actions, but do you realize that this contradicts everything that Christianity teaches. Jesus came to live on this earth as a sinless man to die for our sins and take our punishment. By following him, and obey his commands we are freed from the punishment of death. You don’t have to accept punishment because on the last day God will forgive us of all wrong doing.
I am not writing this to judge you, or tell you how to live your life, because like the rest of mankind, my list of sins is great. But I believe in a savior who took my sin on his shoulders and took away my punishment. My prayer is that you will be able to see that God has power over sin, and that you can accept that he has the abIlity to take away the punishment of death.

    Mar 17, 2015

    I think you misunderstood, she said that loving a woman makes her no more a sinner than anyone else.

    Mar 17, 2015

    Kate thank you for sharing.

    But that is the point of my blog.

    I don’t believe that loving Erin is a sin.

    That is what I have been told my whole life, and I do not agree.

    To be faithful, loving, and true to her – as I would with anyone, man or woman is my point.

    And as I also put, no one, can tell me what God will tell me on judgement day. So until that point, i will and always will choose love.

      Mar 18, 2015

      Thank you for that clarificstion. I genuinely wish you both the very best.

Mar 17, 2015

That was beautifully said!!!!

Mar 17, 2015


Words cannot express how amazing this was to read. Coming from a very Catholic family I struggled with accepting myself, and struggled even more with how to tell my family that I was gay; it still is a struggle telling them. I feel blessed that I have someone like you to look up to when things get hard. Reading about your journey has helped me become more confident in mine. LOVE is the greatest thing that we can share, and you constantly remind me of that. Thank you for sharing something like this with us. You don’t have to share any aspect of your private life with us, yet you choose to so that more people can see the understanding and love that we need so badly. You use the platform soccer has given you to reach out to the people like me, that just need someone like you to look up to.

Thank you. Thank you so much.

Mar 17, 2015

This is a beautifully written declaration of love. You’ll probably find that on some level or another your words will speak to someone struggling with similar issues. How you embrace this with compassion, love, and an appropriate amount of anger is encouraging for those who wish to do the same. You should be upset when someone would superficially discount your love.

Not surprisingly, my support comes from a place familiar to your journey.

When writing you always have to remember that it’s not cliche if it’s true. Your words are honest and not the least bit cliche. Love is love and you have proven to yourself this is true. Thank you for being honest and open with your story.

Mar 17, 2015

Such a lovely article!
God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers.

Mar 17, 2015

You’ve made a lot of people very PROUD of you for so many different reasons, Ella. You don’t need to explain yourself, especially in defending your love, but you did a great job doing so.

The people that know you and the fans that admire you…there will always be more of us cheering you on than those tearing you down. Keep going, Ella. You fuckin’ rock.

Mar 17, 2015

Know that your story hits home to a lot of people and your willingness to openly express both your faith and love makes the world a better place for all. There is nothing sad about your and Erin’s story. Love=happiness. Thank you for having the courage to stand up for your faith and for your partner.

Mar 17, 2015

Thank-you for sharing your story with us. It is appreciated more than you can know.
It is amazing how both as individuals and together Ella and Erin inspire me everyday to be a better version of myself.
So Thank-you again for sharing.
You both deserve true love.

Mar 17, 2015

Ella, you owe me a box of kleenex! This was so beautiful, and I admire you so much for your strength, courage, and honestly. All blessings to you and Erin always, you’re two very special ones!

Mar 17, 2015

Ella, this was beautifully written! You explained love in such an important way. Your story is incredible! and young women everywhere are so lucky to have you and Erin as role models. I wish you both so much love and happiness.

Mar 17, 2015

While I agree with much of what you say and appreciate your LGBT-positive theology, I think you’d benefit from possibly re-thinking sin. Gary Anderson in “Sin: A History” explains that the word sin in the Bible originally had the meaning of a weight one bears but the meaning later morphed into the idea of a debt one has to repay. For example, if someone stole from another person in Biblical Israel, they would owe a debt to the person they had committed crimes against and were seen to be in a state of sin until their debt is repaid. What I think would make your article even more LGBT friendly and Christian would be to say that LGBT people aren’t sinning at all. We have not committed crimes against God or against fellow humans, Christian or otherwise; what debt, then, must we repay?

The authors of Ephesians and Galatians say that in Jesus’ death all categories of “Other” are abolished and we are made one community under Christ Jesus. Neither Jew nor Greek, male or female matters any longer. We can safely extend Jesus’ gift to say that neither gay nor straight, black nor white matter either. What matters is that we all have the capacity to do the work of God like Jesus, to stand against oppression in all its forms, to love our neighbors as ourselves, to feed and clothe the poor, and to be present with those who are sick and dying. I am glad you have chosen to stand up and say that God’s table is an open and affirming on for LGBT people. I want to encourage everyone to rethink calling LGBT people sinners because as you’ve pointed out, there’s nothing more similar to Jesus than love. Let’s not call our love (the same love God and Jesus have for creation) for each other sin.

Further, let’s all remind ourselves that Jesus himself was a particularly queer individual–an unmarried middle-aged Middle Eastern man would have in all other normal cases been married already and having children. Jesus, queer and unique, chose against the cultural norm. LGBT people, too, are unique and different and like Jesus have chosen against the cultural norm. It is time we too are welcomed and celebrated as part of God’s creation, not called sinners for our unconventional love.

    Mar 17, 2015

    I should change the wording in my previous post slightly to say that rather than re-thinking sin, as I think you and I agree that LGBT love is not a sin, you should expand on why you think it’s not a sin. This shouldn’t be an issue with Christians anymore. They need to abandon their old idea of sin as things have changed much since Biblical Israel. I highly recommend Anderson’s book as it has helped me grapple with sin-language as an LGBT person. Thanks again for your great testimony to love. Your last paragraph really emphasizes what I believe as well.

Mar 18, 2015

I’ve been a Dash season ticket holder since day one and have always loved your heart and passion on the field. But I don’t think I’ve ever been as proud, that you play for the team I love, as I am today.

Mar 18, 2015

Hi Ella,
You and Erin are a beautiful couple and I wish you all the love and happiness to be had in this life! Bravo for putting yourself out there for the world to read…
Some thoughts of mine on religion –
I agree wholehearted with what you said about living by love. That’s what I chose to do. I was not raised with any specific religion. I am also definitely an agnostic. Honestly, organized religion personally creeps me out… It’s such a foreign thought to me that so many people would follow so closely a book that was written over 2,000 years ago by a man…a man who probably used those words for a tool to control the masses before the days of law… the idea that ‘God’ is a man sitting on a beautiful chair that we have to answer to before we go to Hell or Heaven to me is absurd… the fact that there’s dozens of religions around the world that people believe theirs is the ‘right’ one or the ‘only’ one is another unfathomable notion to me. I don’t doubt that Jesus existed and I do want to believe in what he stood for… Love and non-judement. That’s a beautiful thought. I’m not sure what happened along the way and why so many people (many family members) I know who consider themselves Christians are the most judgmental people I’ve met. That seems like a contradiction to me!
There are hundreds of species in this world that would be considered gay or bi or transgendered. Whoever the creator is or what it is would not have made people any different… loving a person of the same-sex is no mistake. What you feel in your heart is the truth. That can’t be wrong or a ‘sin’. No one knows what happens when our heart stops beating. I believe that whatever comforts you in this living life and drives us to be better human beings is good thing… however we label this (religion). Do your best and with love and you can’t go wrong. I believe in the power of manifestation and that we ‘call in’ what we get in this life… with good intentions anything is possible.

Keep kickin’ ass Ella. I don’t know you or Erin but you seem like two total badass babes and I’d like to get to know. I know I’ve pulled inspiration from you both… I’m sure I’m not the only one. Good on you for using your fame to get a good message across.
Keep it up!
Sarah Mayhew

Mar 18, 2015

I’m a 19 year old college student, playing my 2 year of soccer ever and I am lucky enough to be playing it in college.
I am so proud to call you one of my role models.
I am an open gay athlete and still try to have a relationship God. This really hit home for me, I feel like I can now still have the relationship with God. I had honestly given up trying because of all the judgment from all the people being mean for Jesus. Saying “your sin is way worst than all my sins”
Love really does conquer all.
Thank you for being you!

Mar 18, 2015

I’d like to sincerely thank you for sharing your story. This journey that you’ve traveled is familiar to so many. I’m in a long term relationship with the love of my life, a woman raised in a strict religious household, educated in religious institutions, who’s parents (who have been beyond amazing to me) have been staunchly oppositional to the issue of homosexuality. We have argued at times on our lack of ability to be honest with those around us about our relationship and I have struggled with the fact that I can occasionally feel like her secret. I shared your piece with her and I feel better for having done it. I hope that it helped her realize that there are others who have faced a similar struggle and that eventually we might be able to live in the light. I understand the inner conflict she feels and I can’t imagine how difficult that struggle is. All that to say – you have so many friends in this world and love carries so much more weight than ignorance. Keep pushing.

Mar 18, 2015

Wow, Ella! Your words moved me to tears. I’m glad you have found peace in your life. Your heart knows what is right & I’m glad you are courageous enough to follow it – despite what small minded people might say/write to you. You deserve to be happy without the judgement of those around you. Please know that you and Erin are supported wholeheartedly.

Mar 18, 2015

Ella, thank you so much for writing this. As a 15 year old Christian teen who is struggling with her sexuality, I really needed to hear these words. Much of my family is extremly conservative, and the past year has been really hard wondering what they will think of me. You and Erin are my role models, and I have looked up to the two of you at times when I couldn’t talk with anyone else. I can’t even express how much you have helped me, and whether you see this or not, thank you so much.

Mar 19, 2015

Ella, I just wanted to say thank you. Never have I ever been more inspired by someone’s words than as I have by yours.
Although I am not religious and my family has no religious ties or connections, my sexuality has always been something that I have struggled with. However through your wise words, you are helping me to understand myself better that I thought I did already. As a university student who is studying a human services course and trying to develop an understanding of myself as a practitioner while still trying to understand myself as a human, it does get confusing but you have made something very clear. Love wins, it is that simple.
Your story is one of strength and courage and bravery and love. And that is something that I deeply respect. You are an amazing role model and I look up to you greatly. You are impacting people with your words all over the world, even here in Australia, in a good way, I assure you.
I wish you and Erin all the best.
Thank you again.

Mar 19, 2015

Ella, having known your Dad, I have no doubt that he is looking down on you with a warm fullness in his heart, so overjoyed at the beautiful woman you have become. I know how proud you have made your mama…. Seems to me like you are living your life in love and to the fullest. That’s the best tribute to God you could give. The heart wants what the heart wants! I’m so happy for you both….. ♡

Mar 19, 2015

Dear Lovely Ella. You are a beautiful intelligent young woman. I’m so very happy for you and Erin! Live your life to the fullest!

Mar 20, 2015

Aloha Ella:

I’m Jake, from Hawaii and formerly Oak Park Ilinois. I truly enjoyed reading this blog post as an LGBT Ally! This blog post is so beautifully written. I give nothing but my utmost respect and aloha to you and Erin McLeod! Welcome to the LGBT community! You and Erin McLeod are great people with so many talents and skills on and off the pitch. the both of you serve as positive role models and are awesome Ambassadors for the LGBT players of both sexes who are active in not only football, but ALL professional sports!

Mahalo (Thank You) for taking time to read this comment if you do ma’am!

Best Regards and Respect:

Mar 21, 2015

As one of your younger followers, coming out was (and evidently still is) an every day struggle for me as an 18 year old. Reading your article and watching you bloom not only as a soccer player but as a person is more than relieving and inspirational. You are one of my favorite players not just in the women’s game, but in general, because you aspire to constantly be better and you acknowledge the flaws not only in yourself but in the world around you. The battle to find “my label” and such is difficult, as well as the battle with religion. I am always finding faith in you and everything you do though; you are so motivational and your relationship with Erin is beautiful. I hope someday I find someone who completes me the way Erin does for you. Thank you for this blog post.

Mar 24, 2015

Great story—and witness. God bless, and Mazel Tov!

May 12, 2015

I wanted to comment (almost) 2 months later so that you could be reminded of what an impact your ‘coming out’ had on people (Re-read the comments, they’re amazing). You are amazing on and off the pitch and I admire you and Erin’s love for each other. My wife and I started off the same way and we are now 10 years in. I wish you two the same happiness that we have been so blessed to share.

P.S. Dash On

Jul 11, 2015

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Jul 12, 2015

Awesome post. I especially love the way you described how your relationship with Erin has helped your relationship with God, despite the fact that she is agnostic. I’m not gay, but I am a Christian in a relationship with a non-Christian; and feel much the same way. And I feel that that is another often frowned upon issue and people can’t understand how a relationship between people who don’t share the same beliefs can work. Do you have any response to some people thinking that that is a sin?

Jul 13, 2015

Came to this article after reading the wedding post in Texas Monthly. I’m sorry the picture comment made you sad then, but I’m happy for you both now. Congratulations 🙂

Jul 14, 2015

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Jul 15, 2015

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Jul 16, 2015

Dear Ella,
You are NOT, I repeat NOT a sinner. Don’t ever think that! Love is love and that’s all that counts!

Jul 17, 2015


I came to this post by pure chance. I was scrolling on Tumblr and saw a quotation with your name underneath. “Surely this isn’t the Ella I went to school with,” I thought. But it is. You probably don’t remember me but we went to middle school and high school together. I always admired your talent and endurance.

I worked for US Soccer for a time after graduating college and there you popped up. I was so happy to hear how well you were doing and that you were doing something that gave you so much joy in school. I almost reached out and told you then but I didn’t for some reason. But here you popped up again and I just needed to tell you that I’m proud of you.
I know I have no right to feel pride but I do. We were just aquaintences and haven’t spoken in a decade but I feel it.
I cannot tell you how happy I am to see that you are a Believer. On top of that, you are a believer, who loves a woman, and holds true to her convictions. You described yourself and what it means to truly believe with such passion and conviction. It truly is inspiring to read and I am so happy for you. You perfectly captured what it is to live like a Christian and spread love instead of hate. You are the type of Christian we need in the public eye and not the mob we have now.

Well, I won’t make this long post any longer. Thank you for writing this post and thank you for living the way we all should. With love.

Thanks for taking the time to read this,
Tristan Riddell

Jul 23, 2015

I really love how this basically has no negative comments.

Jul 31, 2015

Hi Ella,
Not sure that you will see this given that you wrote this a while ago…but I figured I’d give it a shot (I didn’t want my girlfriend to see and she would if I wrote on to you on Twitter or something!). Short background…I am writing to you from Boston, MA. My girlfriend and I have been together for almost three years now and I am so happy that we found each other. We have grown so much as a couple and as individuals and love each other more and more each day. Anyways, she is a huge fan of yours and is turning 28 on August 25th. I am going to get her one of your jerseys but was wondering if there is any chance that you would be willing to sign it somehow? :/ If not I completely understand but I would still like to take the time to thank you. It may sound silly but you have helped make our relationship stronger. My girlfriend has very similar views regarding love and religion and she seemed to have swept that part of herself under the rug for a while. But since watching your videos and reading your blog she seems to be more accepting of those beliefs…remembering that just because you love who you love doesn’t mean that you need to let go of your religious beliefs. You and Erin have been and inspiration and I thank you for that. Best of luck to you both and we will continue watching the Erin and Ella show and laughing our heads off! You guys are the best! 🙂

Aug 04, 2015

Not even sure you’ll read this among the sea of other comments, but I had to write. I’m a life-long Jesus follower, a woman deeply in love with her husband, with 3 crazy little soccer nuts of our own, and I know that God brought me to find this post. I read it weeks ago and it’s still on my phone- I read it over and over. Because it speaks deeply to my heart. I don’t think you have to be gay to have this touch your soul. My greatest prayer is for my children to know the Lord. That’s it- greatest prayer in life. And someday one of them might come to me and tell me they are gay. And I pray with all my heart that my response will be to love them even more, to stand beside them, and behind them.
Jesus did not tell us that the greatest commandment is to point out the sins of others and teach others about good and evil. Our greatest command is to love the Lord with all our heart, soul, mind and strength. And to love our neighbor as ourselves. I’m so thankful for you Ella and pray that God pours so much of His love over you and Erin, that others are drawn to know the Lord through you. I pray that you never walk away from your faith and that you experience the love and power of our AWESOME Abba as you step out to walk with him and your wife.
You’ve made our family a HUGE fan of Canadian women’s soccer!
God bless you and your marriage!

Aug 14, 2015

So glad I read this! I agree with you 100%. Why should loving someone be a sin? It’s not. A man can love a man and a women can love a women. Just because they are the same gender does not mean they can’t love each other! Ella and Erin are so cute together and I wish them the best on the journey. All are so inspiring to young people who are gay and inspire young people to follow there dreams. I play soccer and my dream is to be as good as you and to play that your level. I hope one day that I can inspire young girls like you!

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I just wanted to say how much I look up to you. You’ve been through alot but you keep your head held high with such grace. That’s really awesome of you.

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